At Seventeen 十七岁 - 齐豫

我的顿悟是在十七岁那年
爱情属于貌美如花的名媛
属于言笑晏晏的高中少女
即使大多早婚且了无牵挂
至今仍一无所知的情人节
红男绿女周五晚的猜字谜
都是白天鹅们申请的专利
在十七岁那年我终于顿悟
而像我们这样影响市容的恐龙
全无上流淑女的高贵典雅气质
只能绝望地蹲家里守着电话机
意淫着王子在电话里温柔呢喃：
“公主，可否屈尊陪我去跳支舞”
这伪装终究只是十七岁的悲剧

一个拥有琥珀色双眸的女孩
穿着破旧褪色的二手连衣裙
虽然她的名字我仍叫不上来
曾说过
出卖自己的人才是真的可悲
他们得到的只是交换的价值
就像那左右逢源的女土皇帝
嫁给了她认为有价值的东西
一份可靠的婚姻和老有所依
请记住
那些看似胜券在握的赢家
早已错过了曾追寻的真爱
只换来了透支的生活质量
和真假难辨的，所谓忠贞
当青春的账户入不敷出时
她们短浅的目光会看向你
睁着死鱼眼仿佛死不瞑目
她们错过了十七岁

一直过着没有情人的情人节
从未在篮球分队伍时被选过
所有明了各中痛苦的女孩们
此曲献给你们
那一年是如此地悠久且远逝
而青春的梦则是生命的馈赠
对我们丑小鸭的最无私馈赠
我们都活在十七岁的游戏里
如果我们足够恣意
我们会在跟自己打牌时出千
我们会幻想接电话的是王子
我们会为错过别样生活懊恼
电话里王子是说“跳舞好吗？”
还有后续那让人心跳的情话
一定都是向我们丑小鸭说的
——Lunatic

I learned the truth at seventeen
That love was meant for beauty queens
And high school girls with clear skinned smiles
Who married young and then retired
The valentines I never knew
The Friday night charades of youth
Were spent on one more beautiful
At seventeen I learned the truth
And those of us with ravaged faces
Lacking in the social graces
Desperately remained at home
Inventing lovers on the phone
Who called to say, "come dance with me"
And murmur vague obscenities
It isn't all it seems at seventeen
A brown eyed girl in hand-me-downs
Whose name I never could pronounce said
Pity, please, the ones who serve
They only get what they deserve
The rich-relationed home-town queen
Marries into what she needs
With a guarantee of company and haven for the elderly
Remember those who win the game
Lose the love they sought to gain
In debentures of quality
And dubious integrity
Their small town eyes will gape at you in
Dull surprise when payment due
Exceeds accounts received at seventeen
To those of us who knew the pain
Of valentines that never came
And those whose names were never called
When choosing sides for basketball
It was long ago and far away
The world was younger than today
And dreams were all they gave for free
To ugly duckling girls like me
We all play the game and when we dare
We cheat ourselves at solitaire
Inventing lovers on the phone
Repenting other lives unknown
That call and say, "come dance with me"
And murmur vague obscenities
At ugly girls like me, at seventeen